I'm delighted to be attending a writer's conference tomorrow. It's my first one.
This blog and you, my friendos, have been an essential piece of my healing, growth and sanity. And humor preservation.
I've always loved to write. When I was young, usually just my Grandma Rosemary read my stories. Writing for a blog is such a unique form of expression. My meager words can reach across the planet, instantly. I'm still amazed by that. (And worried, because no one loves & appreciates me like my Grandma did).
My question for you, fellow endo blogger, is this. How do you define yourself...a writer who happens to have endo, a blogger who writes about endo, an endo sister who blogs? Or none of the above?
HAPPY WRITER WITH ENDO
Friday, September 24, 2010
Posted by Jenn at 9:52 PM 5 comments
Labels: blogs, endo, question, random thoughts, writing
THE ITCHY AND SCRATCHY SHOW
Sunday, September 19, 2010
My wicked itch has improved, so I've downgraded my condition to, The Itchy and Scratchy Show. Hopefully, like a brief spot on a Simpsons episode, I will chuckle & the show quickly will move on. And I'll forget all about it because so many other funny things have happened in-between.
I guess that's why I still proudly proclaim my love for the Simpsons, even after all these years. No matter what my mood, Homer can always, always make me laugh. I was wishing the new season started tonight, but it looks like I'll have to wait one more week.
Posted by Jenn at 9:24 PM 6 comments
Labels: frown upside down, the Simpsons, yeast infection
WICKED ITCH OF THE YEAST
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
My first day home after my amazing vacation, I started to feel the burning symptoms of a yeast infection. Nothing like a yeast invasion to burst your bubble, huh? Wow, did my soaring bubble deflate fast.
This is the fourth occurrence ever for me. I count myself lucky, considering how many women suffer repeat infections. I have a friendo who is her mid-30s who has never had one. Most women are shocked when she states this fact, as they cringe at the memory of theirs.
That first morning, I started out with a homeopathic remedy, including vaginal suppositories & external cream. I tried this for three days. Though it was a seven day supply, by the third day, I was losing my mind & had to try something else (anything else!). So I bought a one-day Monistat pack, including wipes, external cream & suppository. The external cream exacerbated the itchy (my crotch is on fire!) torture. I had to resign to seeing a doctor. But since it was Sunday, I would have to wait one more day. (aahhh!).
My friendo (the never-had-a-yeast-infection and fellow EndoSister) had called me on Saturday to ask if I wanted to hike with her Sunday morning. I revealed my inconvenient, unbearable situation & told her that my vagina may not want to cooperate with her plan. She quickly responded, "well...you tell your vagina that it has ruled this roost for too long & it's time for her to be nice or you are going to start using tampons again." I laughed so hard I thought I'd stop breathing. And Sunday morning, despite the pain, I sucked it up & took a hike with her. I spent that night tossing in agitation, barely sleeping at all.
In the morning, my condition was much worse. My husband called from work to relay some information about banking or bills or something important to me & I had to stop him mid-sentence & say, "Baby, I'm not going to remember anything you are saying. All my brain can think about is how horrific my vaj feels right now. Let's talk about this later, ok?" He was sweet & tried to empathize. Feeling sorry for myself, I spouted something about how I was being punished for having so much fun last week & my loud declaration (& blog post) about how terrific I was feeling. I thanked him & quickly hung up the phone, sparing him anymore of my ranting.
As fate would have it, I then listened to my cell messages & discovered I had a long-ago-scheduled appointment for today (Monday) with my previous OBGYN, that I had totally forgotten about. It feels like a lifetime has occurred since the last time I saw this doctor. She's the one who referred me to dr #2 for my endometriosis. I had been thinking about the importance of contacting this doctor to explain that dr #2 should not be receiving referrals as an endo surgeon/specialist, based on my experiences. And more importantly, who she should/could be sending patients to see for help. The opportunity presented itself to have this conversation, courtesy of my wicked yeast infection. So I took it.
The doctor listened to the abbreviated version of the last nine months of my endo story. (As my brain shouted, vagina is burning!!! Make it stop!) She expressed empathy through it all. I raved about my new doctor (dr #3) & his knowledge & skills as an endo surgeon. I hope & pray she remembers my story the next time she needs to make a referral for a case like mine.
Hence, even my yeast infection has a silver lining.
I suffered through the brief (felt-like-hours) exam. The last thing my vagina wanted was to be poked & prodded. This is always true, but especially in this irritated state. She decided it was safe to say it was a yeast infection & prescribed an oral dose of Diflucan. I had never taken a pill to treat my previous ones, so this was a surprise. I kicked myself for waiting four days to get checked out & find relief.
Twelve hours after taking the one Diflucan (aka Fluconazole) pill, I was already feeling somewhat better. I can actually think about something besides a scorching vagina. So I feel like I'm heading in the right direction on the (yellow brick) road to recovery.
Posted by Jenn at 9:49 AM 6 comments
Labels: diflucan, doctors, endo, TMI, vagina, women's health, yeast infection
FLOWERS FROM MY FRIENDS
Monday, September 13, 2010
Below I'm captured, beaming, two weeks before my wedding day.
Roses from my Friends
Posted by Jenn at 1:23 AM 5 comments
I CAN FLY!
Thursday, September 9, 2010
I am ecstatic to share this post with you friendos!
Exactly three months ago I was undergoing a robotic laparoscopy, facing serious risks and fears. Just three months later, on Labor Day, I crossed an exhilarating feat off my bucket list...I flew!
When I was in the depths of my endo pain, I could barely walk up the stairs. Some days I couldn't get out of my bed because the pain was so severe. If someone would have told me in June that I would be feeling marvelous by the beginning of September, there is no way I would have believed them.
I spent the past week staying with my best friend on an island in the Great Lakes. I decided to take advantage of not having a job & take a relaxing, rejuvenating getaway to celebrate my birthday. (Okay, I admit it. My girlfriends & I love to celebrate our birthweek or sometimes birthmonth to extend the fun!) Two years ago for my birthday, my bff bought me a parasailing gift certificate. I tried to go last year, but the weather didn't cooperate. Now I know why; I was meant to fly in celebration of healing.
I started off small. On Sunday, I had some fun jumping on her trampoline. Bouncing instantly makes me smile. It brings out the silly child in me.
taking flight into the gorgeous sky
(Peter Pan was right) I can fly!
I felt like a butterfly, emerging from her cramped cocoon to embrace her new, wondrous life.
I know my battle with endo will continue, but days like these sure make the fight worth fighting.
Posted by Jenn at 3:06 PM 10 comments
Labels: bucket list, friendo, happy birthday, play
A TRULY HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Yesterday, I crossed an exhilarating item off my bucket list. (Post to come friendos!)
Praise God, what a glorious day! I'm off to enjoy my feast.
Posted by Jenn at 6:45 PM 3 comments
Labels: food, friendo, happy birthday
HOISTING MY YAY FLAGS (AGAIN)!
Sunday, September 5, 2010
I just received the notification that the redetermination unit of unemployment sided with me!
YAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
The company (jerks) claimed that I had no intention of returning to work as their reason to appeal my benefits. Really?? Then why did I provide you with documentation from my doctor's office with a return to work date? (Also, it's hard to return to work when you get fired!)
Maybe they appeal all requests for unemployment, I really don't know. All I know is that I can finally never, ever have to deal with this shady company again. Yay!
Thanks to everyone for rooting for me. I'm off to celebrate!
Posted by Jenn at 1:07 PM 7 comments
Labels: unemployment, work
HOT FLASH-HAIRCUT
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Posted by Jenn at 11:29 AM 2 comments
Labels: haircut, hot flashes